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Post by angie on Jun 18, 2010 16:35:55 GMT 10
Carlisle was in his study, staring at the photos of him with the Volturi. It brought back the memories of his time with them, how they fed, how they were so much different than him and his family. They didnt frighten him per say. But they didnt make him feel all warm and fuzzy inside either. He still remembered how he was the only one who couldnt endure the screams, who could resist the blood flowing through the humans veins.
Screams echoed through his head, as the memories of that time filled his mind. He may not remember much about his human life, but he could remember all about his vampire one.
Suddently, the door opened, and Carlisle turned to see who it was, quicker than the human eye would have noticed. He was thinking it would be Bree or Alice or even Esme, but he didnt expect it to be Edward. Why didnt he expect him? He wondered. It was his house to and it could have been anybody, even Bella.
"Edward, my son. Whats going on?"
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Post by cullen01 on Jun 20, 2010 4:36:34 GMT 10
Edward had been pacing in his room for hours, he knew he had made a promise, but he didn't want to accomplish it, he kew that if he did, he would kill Bella, his life! it would be like comiting suicide!
He needed to talk to his father, but he seemed to be absort in some memories, and Edward didn't want to interupt him, so he just paced in his room.
When Carlisle seemed to be leaving those memories in the past again, Edward got down stairs in a really super speed and opened the door.
"I'm sorry... Can I talk to you? if it's a bad moment, I can wait"
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Post by angie on Jun 20, 2010 12:53:38 GMT 10
Carlisle was pleased to see his son coming to him for advice, well at least that was what it seemed like at the moment. “no no you are not interrupting anything, its fine and you should know that I will always have time for any of my children. No matter what I am doing just come and ask for a moment of my time and I will five you my undivided attention “ Carlisle smiled. “Now what was it that you needed?” He made sure that all of his books were away and he pulled up another chair beside him “sit please” he smiled at his son. So many things were going through his mind on what this could be... But he was pretty sure that he could be about Bella, actually he was pretty sure it was about her. Either that or he wanted to complain about Bree....
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Post by cullen01 on Jun 20, 2010 17:07:44 GMT 10
Edward knew what was in his father's mind, he could read even the smalles and insignificant thought that was in his mind, but he rather speak and ask first, because he knew that sometimes it was rude to just answer to the things that others were just thinking at the moment.
"I know... thank you"
He walked to the chair that he had just moved for him, he looked at his father and sat down. And couldn't help himself about answering to his last thoughts.
"No, it's not about Bree... not this time at least"
Then he frowned and sighed.
"I'm sorry, I didn't want to snoop in your thoughts."
Then he breathed deeply again and smiled at the man that he respected more than if he was his blood related father! Then after thinking in the way of bringing up the subject, Edward looked back at Carlisle and said.
"I'm afraid of what can happen after the wedding... I'm terrified..."
His eyes showed all the pain and fright he had hiden in his unexistent soul. |
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Post by angie on Jun 21, 2010 20:49:18 GMT 10
Carlisle looked at his son. Carlisle had already gotten used to Edward answering things that were not shared aloud. So him doing this today wasn't anything new and he was not offended by him doing it again. He was still pleased that he came to him for advice.
“Well its perfectly natural to be afraid. But more importantly what terrifies you? You changing her ? Or Your other little agreement?” Of course Edward had told him about Edward and Bella having sex. He hadn't asked Carlisle out right for advice but Edward was afraid that he was going to kill her then, and not even get to the changing her part.
Carlisle looked at him, he seemed to be suffering now, but Edward had to understand that he had chosen to not live without Bella, that this was really the only way, he would never get over her and things... Things wouldn't be the same in the household without bella either. Carlisle smiled. “dont worry son, but if you want my advice, your gonna have to give me more details than that.”
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Post by cullen01 on Jun 22, 2010 16:16:54 GMT 10
Edward knew what his father meant, and knew that he would have to tell him, but well he wasn't used to talk about THAT! he wasn't Emmett and Rosalie!, they used to do it everyday! but not him!!
He looked at Carlisle and then said. "well... yes I'm afraid of hurting her, of killing her!! what if I can't control my self! I could kill her only by rubbing her body with my hands in that moment!!"
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Post by angie on Jun 23, 2010 2:37:50 GMT 10
Carlisle sighed. “i know you could, but you haven't. And thats what matters. You think you will but thats all a mental state, you wont Ive said before I have faith in you. Bella loves you more than her life, and you love her just the same. You are extra careful with her. You worry to much. Bella may be human, but she is not stupid. She wouldn't have you doing this if she didn't have faith and trust in you to not kill her. “ Carlisle looked his son in the eye. “Calm down. Just relax and breath. You cant force something first of all, and second your gonna be fine When its over you'll realize that you can control it. And you will be that much happier that you did. “ Carlisle smiled, and put his hand on Edwards shoulder. “is that all?”
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Post by cullen01 on Jun 24, 2010 0:34:32 GMT 10
Sometimes Edward forgot the blinding faith that Carlisle had in his sons and daughters, sometimes he thought that maybe Carlisle was in deed a vampire with a human soul, or maybe an angel... he was always looking the good and bright side of the things.
But he was a demon, a thing without a soul. A monster that could kill his beloved human in a second just with a harder embrace. He looked at Carlisle and shook his head.
"Carlisle, I really appreciate the faith you have in me, but... 'That' moment has had its opportunity several times, but I've stopped it! one you know me... not before marriage... but secondly and mainly... i'm scared... I have this images of Bella all smashed under my hands!" |
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Post by angie on Jun 24, 2010 0:56:46 GMT 10
Carlisle nodded . He understood what he was saying, and he knew that something like that was hard to get over. There had been times when Carlisle had imagined Esme torn to pieces and thrown in the flames. He didn't like putting her in danger, he didn't like thinking about her getting hurt. He loved her with all his heart, she would always be the only woman for him. And even though Bella was not a vampire like Esme, she was still a strong and independent like Esme.
“Its going to be hard, I'm not saying that, you just have to believe in yourself, Edward. Believe in yourself trust in yourself. No one is going to be there holding your hand when it happens. “
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Post by cullen01 on Jun 25, 2010 16:38:00 GMT 10
Edward looked at Carlisle and for a second healmost laughed and not because it was something hilarious, but because he couldn't believe how faithful was his father and second the image of someone holding his hand in that moment was... ridiculus.
"I know that Carlisle... but yet, I don't know... I guess I'll try to keep her busy... you know the island... there are tons of things to do... " he smiled at his father and sighed, it had been kind of relieving. "but... I want to turn her here... at home, where you can help me with her as a newborn." he looked at his father now with a painful look. |
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Post by angie on Jun 28, 2010 14:45:05 GMT 10
Carlisle nodded "That can be arranged. And you said that you wanted to see if you fave her enough morphine would she still feel the pain?" He raised his eyebrows at Edward. "i dont know enough about it to actually say that it will work. But We can still try, Im sure i can get some from the hospital, they trust me they will not ask if i take some for personal use... " He looked around the room thinking about it. "and when you do it.. well ill make sure that you do not go over board. " Make sure you dont kill her... he thought afterwards.
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Post by cullen01 on Jun 30, 2010 16:53:17 GMT 10
Edward nodded when Carlisle reminded him about the morphine, he hated to think that Bella was going to suffer as much as he did when it was his transformation, he really hated it and squeezes his heart just to think about it.
"I know... and I really have to thank you for even considering it, I couldn't see her suffering as we did"
Then he heard his thoughts and smiled saddly. "I also have to thank you about that" he smiled widely at him. Then other thing crossed his mind.
"did you know that Aro sent Liza to kill Bree?" he asked in a cold voice, he didn't want to show any kind of warm feelings for the one who once was his sister, the one that he loved so much, the one that betrayed the family joining the Vulturis. |
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Post by angie on Jul 1, 2010 1:49:40 GMT 10
Carlisle stiffend. He thought that Faith was going to talk to Edward and that this was going to not be an issue between Carlisle and Edward. Carlisle let out a deep breath and turned away from Edward, as if that would help block out his thoughts. It wouldnt he knew but it would help him keep his composure when talking about Faith to Edward.
" Yes. " Carlisle said softly. "And im the one who convinced her to not kill her, to at least observe what has been going on , the change in Bree, and then go back and convince Aro that there is no need to kill her. " Carlisle turned back to Edward with a sad smile. " Edward, i mean think about it, its your sister coming back to stay, if only for a little while" Carlisle was happy that he kinda had his family back, he loved all his children equally and it had made him sad when Faith chose to leave.
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Post by cullen01 on Jul 1, 2010 3:00:44 GMT 10
It wasn't that he didn't love his sister, but he knew how edgy she could get, how crazy the smell of vampire's venom made her, and how it would end up in a tragedy for Bree, any one in that house or even Bella if Faith decided to stay more time.
"yes... and I also remember how she attacked Alice... she could have killed her! and now she's here to kill bree, and you allowed her to stay? do you really trust her?" |
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Post by angie on Jul 1, 2010 3:20:05 GMT 10
Carlisle looked at his son with sorrow in his eyes. "I know what happened, but Faith... she has changed. I do trust her and i promised to give her a trial run, to see if she can stick to our rules and how we live. You have to give her a chance Edward" He shook his head. "i have to give her a chance, she was one of my first daughters. I love her still no matter what happened, just like i love each and every one of you even when you make a mistake" He looked at Edward, hoping he will understand "and i t hink you should talk to her also."
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